The things that make you human and humble.
Lately I have been pretty negative about a bunch of things.
I thought about this in a drunken stupor the other day, and a little yesterday while I was at work.
I am making myself miserable which is not cool. It took me a while to put my situation in prospective but I think I got it.
Let’s be blunt, because it’s what I do best.
I may have not have that much time with my pops. All the more reason to live it up and enjoy it. Being sad wont change the situation, and it can only cause me pain, when I am in good health.
My job has been another element that has been stressing me out. I didn’t realize it until my boss asked me to stop asking to go home early. I didn’t realize how unprofessional and redic I sound until he pointed it out. He said “well clearly you hate your job.” I paused and thought about it, and decided even if that’s half true I don’t want to be reflecting that in my face, appearance and make my job any shittier than it already is. I got to make it work, and as the best buy saying goes “have fun while being the best”!
I think all this negativity is finally wearing me down. I’ve been working on feeling positive the last few days and it is loads better. Yes. Working on it. Working on myself.
What I really need is cheese cake, some rest.. And I mean legit vacation!!!! And maybe a nice simple bikeride!
